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« on: May 01, 2008, 02:57:05 PM » |
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An old friend and Lodge Brother told me, "You were remarkably creative when you went off meds--unfortunately, things got rougher". I told him I have traded creativity for stability and havent been hospitalized in years--but a solution seems to have appeared: On 35mg of Abilify I keep my creativity and it doesnt go overboard into mania--I tried it for a month. Doc wants me on 40mg however, which I think is too much--deadens everything. I am going to try and talk him into reducing it 5mg next time I see him. Any observations?
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« Reply #1 on: May 01, 2008, 03:01:14 PM » |
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I think it depends on the type of system you have. I'm on 10mg of Abilify and the only time I get creative is if I am manic - which is pretty much never anymore. My creativity was gone once they put me on all these drugs. I guess you're pretty lucky to still have your creativity. Then again, maybe your manic and don't know it?  |
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« Last Edit: May 02, 2008, 09:08:31 AM by Phyllis »
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« Reply #2 on: May 01, 2008, 09:56:06 PM » |
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I'm also more creative when I'm hypomanic. I used to write & draw ... and paint a little. I want to get back to painting, but I would probably just stare and the canvas. The assignments in my graphics classes don't always require much creativity. It's mostly about using the tools.
Calyton .... what lodge?
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« Reply #3 on: May 01, 2008, 10:12:41 PM » |
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Oh ... but I'm not on Abilify ... just a bunch of other brain numbing crap. ( sorry, but it really was crap this week )
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« Reply #4 on: May 02, 2008, 02:37:41 AM » |
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I'm on Abilify andf Zyprexa and it's ok but I'm not convinced quite right...though I don't really have time for creative stuff at the moment cos I have exams next week...still, they'll soon be over and I can work on my novel again :-)
Glad to hear you're doing well Clayton, sounds like you've really earned it.
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« Reply #5 on: May 02, 2008, 12:31:15 PM » |
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Dear Ramji; That would be the Ordo Templi Orientis, or Order of the Temple in the East, a Masonic Order "dedicated to the high purpose of securing the Liberty of the Individual and his or her advancement in Light, Wisdom, Understanding, Knowledge, and Power, through Beauty, Courage, and Wit, on the Foundation of Universal Brotherhood."--just happened to have that handy.
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« Reply #6 on: May 04, 2008, 04:18:27 PM » |
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clayton, i am also playing with my meds in hopes of finding a better balance between creativity lethargy and stability. since the start of my journey it's been quite a change and a ride back into total instability. but i'm still hoping to find a balance somewhere. i have to say my pdoc is getting quite frustrated because he was satisfied with stable and quiet. yet, he does seem to be understanding of my quest in spite of his great frustration which is lucky for me. i do wonder though if often i think i'm being creative and i'm just too manic/grandiose to realize it's not all that creative. i guess that's why i'm always asking for validation. i use to be a big fan the program the Simpson's and i recall once when Lisa was forced to be away from school and she kept running around asking people to grade her. i feel like that. "grade me, someone please please grade me on ability and creativity," but goshdarn it it'd better be an A or i can't live with myself.
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« Reply #7 on: May 05, 2008, 05:04:41 PM » |
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dear k: I have had manic episodes in which I created the greatest works which, when I looked at them "sober", were just disconnected sentences with no meaning. lol. Current situation is not like that.
If you have written something, you can employ a "critique service" to tell you the scoop about it. I am a pianist and writer, and neither goes smoothly because of shaking hands--cant type or play piano very well--many mistakes. Today my optometrist yanked out a bunch of my eyelashes with tweezers because they were touching my eyeball--what steady hands!
Sounds like you're in the same situation as me, only different mood. I hope you achieve what you're looking for with the meds.
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« Reply #8 on: May 06, 2008, 05:10:24 PM » |
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im not on any meds but i really should be . im confused as to take meds or not.
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« Reply #9 on: May 06, 2008, 05:36:23 PM » |
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Don't be confused....just try meds out and see if they work. You have nothing to lose, and much to gain. Otherwise you are just playing with fire and you will get burned eventually.
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« Reply #10 on: May 06, 2008, 05:39:42 PM » |
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But arent some of the meds dangours? i mean like side effect wise?
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« Reply #11 on: May 06, 2008, 11:45:56 PM » |
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Mizfit- yes, there are some horrible side effects, but the drugs kept me from harming myself. Sometimes the side effects for me are so great that I try to come off of the meds, only to realize quickly, why I take them. The side effects outweigh the illness most of the time. You have to play around with which meds work best for you and what dosages work best for you, but in the end, you get some relief. K- sometimes I think we are twins somehow. The exact same thing is happening with me. My doc is happy with the cocktail I'm on b/c it keeps me out of her hair, but I feel the same as you, I want out of this "coma" and I won't shutup until I get some help. Ramji- I'm on so much brain numbing crap that I don't know which one is doing the numbing. Clayton- I'm glad you have some creativity left in you. I used to be so creative, I miss that. Just trying to work on my scrapbooking hobbie gives me such anxiety b/c I can't think of the creative ways of making a page look as good as it used to.  |
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« Reply #12 on: May 07, 2008, 10:55:12 PM » |
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 We will Endure--I have endured a whole lot of crappin stuff--still almost as creative and smarter than ever---
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« Reply #13 on: May 09, 2008, 07:56:34 PM » |
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meds dont make me creative....but hyper behaviour does...so many ideas that i have to draw but hardly any get finished...
mizfit.....i was diagnosed and told which meds would help me...i was stubborn and paranoid and refused the lot for a long time,the result was dangerous behaviour,lots of near misses with my life and alienating those around me,plus my kids have suffered..........now i am finally seeing the light and asking for help,only this time i have to start from scratch again..so my advice is this,if you are offered the treatment now then take it.....some drugs work better for others but eventually the right combination will be found for...it just takes time.....and i wasted too much of that x
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« Reply #14 on: May 18, 2008, 02:12:53 PM » |
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Hello everyone I am new here. My wife suggested that I try some online support because I refuse to seek counceling. My grandfater and father were both bipolar and I was just diagnosed myself about 2 weeks ago. My doctor wanted to put me on lithium but I am very afraid as I know most people who are in the phsyc ward are on lithium. Anyone have any thoughts on that? He put me on ceroqal or some shit like that. I am taking 200mg a day and it makes me sleep which is ok but is giving me some crazy dreams. Anyway I have a question besides meds. Today for example I kept telling my wife to leave with the kids...go somehwere...do something....and as always when i do this, I now want them home. God this disaese is frustrating as hell.
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